Chapter 19

Finn really starts feelling under the weather on about January 20, we miss Nicola Family Therapy dinner, go to Paul
Paul can't find problem, but acknowledges there is one
Finn gets worse over the weekend, I start writing
He falls down stairs, walks in endless circles until collapse, does not know who we are, won't eat
By Monday, we know we have to have him put to sleep
Paul comes to house, I keep thinking to postpone, but can't watch him starve to death or die of dehydration
Strangely Cinn does not raise a fuss when Paul is here
Tracie goes to Brayden's naming ceremony, but I stay home the next weekend to take Finn to be cremated
Kids at school are great when I'm grieving.  Megan Rabitt.
Cinn and Shake sleep together that week, but never again